I've been thinking much about life. It all started a few days ago when I was yelling (okay, screaming) at the girls because they totally were not listening. Not justifying actions, but I also wasn't being completely irrational... okay, maybe a little irrational since they're just short of three and just past 18 months. Anyway. I pulled up the shade in my room, and Ms. Nosey Neighbor had her ear pressed against the screen. You think I'm kidding. NO. Of course I'm humiliated and wanted to lay down and die, but on a positive note this could've been my rock bottom. Maybe that will help me be better. A good kick in pride's knees can do magic. The little pride left that I have, however, would like to share that I am not a swearer, a name caller, a hitter. Just a screamer. Like, require-cough-drops-later-in-the-day screamer.
So I got to thinking why do I scream? I am SO content, I'm SO happy, they are SO young. Then I realized it's the busyness of life. (mmm hmmm I do think vacuuming and playgrounds make a very busy life) I feel like I'm always rushing. I think that is probably the perfectionist in me. I want everything done, and everything done RIGHT, so it takes a way from my children.
So everybody, let's rise up and all take a chill pill. Really. No matter where you are in life, make it the best time of your life. Love it. Love what you do, do what you love. Useless anxiety is... useless.
Oh silly Mrs Nosy Neighbor. Perhpas later you can share your pills.
ReplyDeleteLife does get stressful. I know exactly what you mean (well, without children and pending children that is!) Today I took a phone call at work that lasted close to 40 minutes. It took a huge dent out of my time for working on other things, but somewhere in the middle of it I had a similar epiphany. After helping the patient with the business side of his call I realized he was probably just a old man who was a little lonely and could use a sympathetic listener. My other work could wait. I didn't get everything else done I needed to, but in the end it was worth it.
Sometimes its so gard to slow down and live in the moment, but when we do: it's the best part of life!
I hope you have a beautiful Thursday!
Oh, Kiera. Y'know, about Ms. Nosy Neighbor: as my mom likes to say, "The wrong people get embarrassed."
ReplyDelete(But cough drops? Dude. That must have been SOME vocalizin'!)
That's so funny, Laura! Isn't it crazy the habits we form (rushing) just to realize that there is no need!? It's like running on a treadmill. You're going nowhere, fast!
ReplyDeleteEmily: I don't know who should be more embarrassed!!
And I'm not kiddin'. I am (was! proud to say i've been putting forth much effort!) quite the yeller. Shameful.